Shame Jen,
My only advice is, keep going. I felt the same some time ago now.
I had an advantage of doing GCSE Welsh (and passed). I left school (jn '95) and apart from flirting with courses and stopping, the odd Welsh place name and football commentary not available in English, I had very little access to Welsh.
We then decided to send my daughter to Welsh medium School. Last year she had an A in first language GCSE this spurred me on to learn. I stumbled along SSIW on Twitter.
I started SSIW in July last year but took it seriously from September. Whist I’m far from fluent and don’t understand structures and patterns completely I’m a little competent and can get by in most situations.
This isn’t meant to be narcissistic and about me but my point is I had no access to welsh from 95 until 2018. What I learned in school I remembered and the way this course teaches you had me speaking quickly. You think you won’t remember but you do. You get confused and make mistakes, its all part of the fun. there’s no rush, its not a sprint and you don’t have to finish in a particular time.
Three tips, if I may;
Relax
Enjoy
Don’t worry about looking stupid (I do always)
This forum is a great resource too. I don’t post much, I lurk a lot but it helps.
Three people stand out as contributors to my development
Aran - helped my nerves on the radio and always compliments
Nicky, Bachgen Rhondda Yn Aberystwyth - His videos are superb and he helped me with a sentence structure on the day he crashed his car bless him
Hendrik (the Welsh German) - he’s more knowledgeable than any welsh speaker I’ve come across and his explanations are amazing.
I guess what I’m saying is the material is there, trust the method, The help is more than there. If a self confessed lazy git like me can crack it, anyone can.
Keep smiling, you will get there!
Neil